Update Eliana

I realized I didn't update on Eliana ! Our own sweet daughter . The love of our lives.
About 2 weeks ago we came back from Stanford. Eliana had a check-up catherization one year after her life saving surgery by Doc Hanley.
All looks as perfect as can be !
The part they tried to fix back home closed of , but she developed dual flow.
What a miracle .
She doesn't need anymore surgeries or catherizations until the conduit change . And that might be 5 , 10 or even 15 years down the road ! We hardly can/dare believe it.
We are so thankful.
The strange thing is that NOW all our fear comes out.
For 2 years we had to keep ourselves together like crazy . Now that all is ok ....we expect the next drama.....
Images of Eliana on ECMO.......sentences like "Suffered cathastrophic stroke " " Everybody has to die sometimes " and " You will burn many bridges " All spoken by doctors at home keep flooding our minds.
It will take a while , I think , for it to die down...
We did have a certain normalcy before going to CA for the catherization. We even had times we forgot about Eliana's chd ....but going and hearing Eliana scream "go, go , go away " when we had to lay her down on the operating table for the catherization brought everything back.
Also ; fighting for other children and waiting during their surgeries draws out deep emotions. I know we have to start living a normal life again for and with Eliana . And we will. The most vivid memories will go to sleep again for a while ....
And I will not go overboard on trying to save as many babies as I can.....
It will and does happen on its own already. Many times miraculously. Maybe the Angels on the picture taken at the Stanford Campus have something to do with this ! :0)